Change of plans for today … I’m taking a mental day off.
Just two days ago I told my son that “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” ….. who knew I’d be saying the same thing to myself.
The doctor called me yesterday .. and I have PreDiabetes … I know it’s not major .. I know people have far worse problems than I … but I still need a few days to have my own pity party and then I’ll shake it off. (My brain is thinking … great … PreDiabetes+Thyroid+Dairy Allergy+IBS .. I’m falling apart.)
If they had told me that in April I would have expected it … but 44 pounds lighter I really thought I was on the right track.
The good news is ..it’s not the traveling that made me sick …it was the change in my diet. I had bacon at Founders Circle for the first time in six months…and of course I had it every day I was there. I was on vacation and crazy me thought that meant I could eat foods that I had given up.
Since last night I struggled with whether to share this information .. I know that some of you need a place to go to escape yourself and I want my blog to be a happy place for you. But .. there are some people that need this information.
Before I lost weight I knew I was one step away from a heart attack, a stroke or Diabetes …. and I took action. But I should have done it sooner. Everyone told me and I just couldn’t be bothered with focusing on me.
When it becomes important to you .. you’ll take action … but what if you never get there. Must we wait until we’re forced?
A few years back I may the mistake of saying that “since my father wouldn’t slow down … God slowed him down”. I’m proud to say I get my work habits from him. But who knew I’d be eating my own words so soon? No biggie I’m ALWAYS eating my words!! I’ve also learned to Never say Never!!
So, what’s next ..
- Next week I start classes on how to change my diet and add an exercise program. (I hate to sweat so this should be interesting.)
- Clean out all the bad foods from the pantry and fridge.
- Plan meals
- Grocery shopping
This is where I’d like to start crying .. none of that sounds fun and who has time for all that … PLUS I have a family to feed that can have all the things I can’t!!
See…..this is why I need a day off … I somehow have to find how to turn this negative into a positive.
The only thing I came up with so far is maybe I’ll lose another 20 pounds ..then I’d actually be the recommended weight for my height. And one more .. maybe my energy level will increase .. this being tired all the time is such a pain!!!
Have a great weekend and thanks for listening to me!!!